You Weren’t With Me

When I seen this I felt like it was a bandage for my brain. Not all adoptees get to experience this fairy tale. I know I’m not one. It hurts a little more for me when I know that my brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles and birth mother will never want me in their life. It hurts that I have never been held by anyone of my immediate family. I will never get the reunion that little rabbit got with big rabbit.


It’s amazing how the brain works when it has suffered relinquishment. The enhancement of cortisol, PEA and glutamate can cause significant damage to the limbic system (including the hippocampus and amygdala, which control verbal and emotional memories)

I have a hard time slowing my brain down and I know I will never be able to make it ‘normal’. Medication and therapy has helped make me calmer and more rational, but I have lost some skills that I cherished. I would love the opportunity to meet some, if not all of my immediate family to have some healing occur. I don’t want to ruin any more lives than I already have, I just want to feel complete.