Victim

I am a victim...I don’t play the victim...I am a victim. So when someone says I am playing the victim I get a little pissed off. Never in my life have I asked anyone to give a shit for anything that has happened to me in my entire life. Now that I look back at my birth and childhood I realize that it would’ve been nice if someone cared about my wellbeing. I now feel as though I was victimized. It wasn’t my choice. Not one moment in my life have I asked for sympathy.
I am a victim that is surviving. I am a victim that survived. I am not ‘playing’ the victim. I will survive because I have no choice but to survive. I struggle everyday to give myself pep talks. Every once in awhile someone acknowledges what happened to me and I feel oddly better. It gives me strength to keep going.