Unconditional Love

I know this may seem weird to the kept population but I can say that I have feelings of love...or at least what I perceive as love...for my birth family.

I've seen this meme multiple times and it got me to thinking that I really do have strong feelings for my Birth Mother, Sisters, brothers and Aunts and Uncles. It's not a hate for them...it is love. I know they will never understand my Adoptee brain but it's not for them to understand. It's me and my feelings and I will die with these feelings in my heart. There is nothing they can do to take that away from me. I feel like the more love in my heart the healthier I will be in my life. I feel like they have feelings for me as well but not the healthy ones...the kind that will kill them or make them hard hearted and cynical.

Whatever they choose to feel and believe is upto them...I have no control over them as they have no control over me. It amazes me how much I have learned about control since my Adoptive father died and left me as coexecutor of his Estate. I can honestly say I am beginning to feel proud of myself.