The Walking Dead...

Everyday I am reminded that people in my family want me dead...I cry when I am reminded. I'm not sure if all adoptees have to struggle with this but I sure hope not. Suicide is always a thought...there's always a plan in the works. There's just more sadness when rejected multiple times so in turn death is a viable option. Just once it would be nice to think about living a long normal life like everyone else...like dying from old age instead of thinking about how to kill oneself successfully.

The fight that goes on in my head is very tiring some days.