Thank god...

I have finally got my senses about me...I finally realize that my First Mother and my Aunt's, my Uncle's and my Brother's and Sisters think I want them to take the role of Family members... It's not what I want. I want to be able to sit down and have a mature Adult conversation with them... About who I am and about who they are. About where I come from...about our similarities. About my Grandparents...

I don't feel that that is too much to ask for...I feel like I deserve it...I feel like I am better than being treated like I am a criminal and that I should be punished for being born...I don't think there are very many kept children that feel like a lot of Adoptee's do. We are prisoners of our non stop negative thinking brain. We don't really need our first family to add to our trauma but unfortunately some of us do have this happen.