MARY LORRAINE DANROTH
My therapist told me get rid of the bad thoughts in my head and to be mindful. Haha... jokes on her...I do have mindful thoughts...I mind being a secret...I mind being conceived by rape...I mind being rejected for a second time from my birth mother...I mind having my 3 brothers and 2 sisters reject me. I mind having my Aunts and Uncles reject me...what is wrong with me as a human being? Why do they shun me? Why do they not want to get to know me and my children or even my grandchildren. It's crazy to think that my birth mother is a great grandmother and she doesn't even care. If it were me I would be sooooo happy...
I would be able to put the past behind me if it was just my extrinsic memories but no no, it's unfortunately my intrinsic memories that control my mind. I hate it and I need help to recover those memories so that I can let them go and recover from that trauma.
Some of the reading I have done has helped me see Sheila for the woman of the sixties that she was. It's crazy how I don't want her to be the mother I never had, I would prefer to be the friend that I could be.
I may even be more educated now than my psychiatrist and therapist.
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