January 01st, 2018

broken or breakthrough?

Had a little breakthrough today while chatting with a new found first cousin once removed. He asked if I had spoken to my birth father yet...I had an instant gut reaction response “if he hasn’t been looking for me it’s not the end of the world to not touch base”. I have received more love and comfort from family that I didn’t know I had but they knew about me. With the rejection I received from my birth mother and my sisters and brothers and aunts and uncles I really couldn’t afford any more of that abuse. I am taking back control of how my life is playing out. I decide who hurts me from now on. And they aren’t worth it.