It's Obvious

I can't count how many times I've been told that I need to let go of my Birth Mother's family...Ive been told that they are obviously not good people for the way they walked out on me... Even though everyone knows how I'm at fault for breaking the silence. The guilt I carry is immense... I'm sure no one from the kept could ever feel these feelings that a twice rejected adoptee has. I struggle with multiple rejections all at once, it's nothing like the failed relationship that a boyfriend/girlfriend suffer through...it's different.