I wish...

But alas they have blocked me, at least I have the ones on my first father's side.
I would really love some kind of relationship with my first Mother's side... They hold the key to my mirror. If only they knew how hurt I really am... But they choose to think everything is fine because they have forced me out of their lives...fine for them...I'm not even expecting to have anything to do with my first mother. I just want to see and hear who they are and who I could've been if I had had some belonging.

Adoption is a hard journey to have to go through.