Here's looking at you kid...

Recently I got to thinking about what my life could've been... Not that I have the worst life... But I really wanted to know if I had been encouraged in a different way where I would be. Would I still be married to the same guy, would I have had 6 kids, would I have a career... And then, what career would it have been?

I wish I would've been given a heads up earlier on that I would be going through these experiences that nobody talks about. I feel like I was shorted I think alot about how I am grateful for what was given to me, but then I feel like I failed and let everyone down. I don't see the success that my therapist has talked about. The success of asking for help when I needed it the most. Im not sure what other success I could ever have. I appear to have no dreams...I guess one could say that I am successful at playing the role of your typical adoptee... The lies we tell ourselves and others just so we don't hurt anyone's feelings.

Adoption Fail's