Guinea Pig...

all of my random thoughts have to go somewhere...otherwise I would go crazy with wonder and confusion.

How many adoptees think that they are actually guinea pigs? Does anyone else feel like society is watching to see what we do...to see how crazy we look...to wait for our breaking point...sometimes it feels like my psychiatrist and therapist and doctor are using me as their teacher. Like I’m the one that is showing them the way. I feel like there is no one out there that can help me since no one has ever talked about their secret...their secret of how they were conceived and how/why they were given away.

It frustrates me that the adoptee is blamed for wanting to know everything the biological children have access to. What makes biological children better than the adoptee? Why do people feel that we are being unreasonable with our simple request.