Feeling From the Heart

All I seem to keep thinking about is how my Birth Mothers family feels about me. I cry when I think about how much they hate me for shaking up the secret. If I had known that I was supposed to stay a secret and that I was a product of rape I never would've reached out for acknowledgment. I cry with the realisation that I hurt so many people. All I wanted was to finally feel a connection to someone. I believe when I requested my OBC I should've been told of the circumstances of my adoption.

I cry for the loss of the only heart that I knew personally. I cry for my shared blood. I cry for the tragedy of the sins I created.