Cancer

Today I learned someone very dear to me has breast cancer... I'm scared she won't make it... Her Mother had it and her Aunt had it... They survived, but with everything else she has I'm worried.

I can only hope I don't have any chance of having it. I worry quite often because I wasn't told that anyone in my direct family line has ever had cancer. So I go with the old saying "no news is good news".

It would kill my husband if I were to end up with cancer when I don't have the kind of doctor that will listen to me. I can't stress how many times I have told her what is wrong and she just seems to brush it off. She says she'll refer me for tests but then it never seems to happen... Living in the middle of nowhere is not the best place to live if you're an Adoptee with little to no knowledge of family medical history. All I can do is keep bitching.. But it feels like she doesn't care since I come in with no info on my family. It feels like I'm unimportant... The same way I feel all of the time...more so now that my first family has shunned me...I just want someone to hear my silent cries...I want my first family to hear me...the new me...the one that has educated herself about first mother's as well.