Better late than never

I watched "Long Lost Family" tonight and right after it there was a new show on called "I Should Have Known". Of course I watched it...

2 years ago I never would've watched any kind of adoption type show...now I feel a need to. It's really the best way for me to see how a happy ending can be...

Over and over it plays in my head that my birth mother really hoped that I was never conceived... especially in the way I was led to believe.
It pains me to think about the turmoil I have put her (and everyone of her family) through. It's those thoughts that are hard to control and put a happy spin on. It's what puts suicide on most adoptees bucket lists. It's why adoption competent therapists are needed so badly. We aren't just like the rest of the depressed...it goes deeper...it goes to our core being. Especially if you are conceived by rape.