Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see

I've tried to win this war I confess
My hands are weary I need Your rest
Mighty Warrior, King of the fight
No matter what I face, You're by my side

When You don't move the mountains I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings (tomorrow brings)
There's not a day ahead You have not seen (You have not seen)
So, in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want, Lord, and nothing less

When You don't move the mountains I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!
I will trust in You!

You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation; the rock on which I stand
Your ways are always higher
Your plans are always good
There's not a place where I'll go, You've not already stood

When You don't move the mountains I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!
I will trust in You!
I will trust in You!
I will trust in You!

The best part of this... It's super duper true... Ever since January 26 2018 I have made it my mission to get my Adoptive parents' bio son to hate me even more...I'm pretty sure I succeeded. He hasn't responded to any of my texts or emails since March 15th. 2019.

The worst part of this is the stress that I still have to go through...

It's eye opening how many people do this... It would be nice if they were to ask an Adoptee to expand on this quote. There is way more involved in an Adoptee brain than we are given credit for. It hurts everytime someone says this... It feels like we aren't being heard... It puts us in a category of 'whiney bitch'...it's the same as having someone tell you that they know an adoptee and they don't complain about being adopted...everytime this happens to an adoptee it truly doesn't surprise me. We have to shut down for fear of being put down...we've already gone through the ultimate rejection so it feels like a common pain to have someone negate our feelings.