Lately there has been alot of Facebook posts of aged people... For me I took it as a way to mirror my family... All I can wonder is "is this what my grandmother, grandfather, Aunts, Uncles, First mother or first father looks like?"

My journey in Adoptionland has opened my eyes to so many possibilities... Like I am actually able to have a falling out with someone and then experience forgiveness... This is a new feeling for me... Most of my life I have had anger as a side effect... And now I can accept other people's opinions... whether I agree or not...

I seriously can't get enough of this clip...

I'm excited to learn that my first family is from good stock...no one can take that away from me...

Sometimes I get mixed messages from my health care team... The other day I had one encouraging me to try to contact my first Mother. She thought that my half sister was trying to protect her from me...she felt that my first mother had a knee jerk reaction to her secret of shame being found out. This professional said that her best friend is adopted and that her first mother reached out to her but she was so angry with her that she wouldn't let the meeting happen. As time has gone by she has finally gotten to a better place and feels like she can make the connection...

I can't see any kind of introduction happen for me but at least I'm healthier than I started off in...I don't need a heart felt Reunion...I need a mirror... Something that a kept child can never understand. Good or bad family they have always seen where they came from. Us Adoptee's will never get that until they meet face to face with their first family...